My Brain versus itself

Compare and Contrast

We had a sub in Music Essentials Honors and Chemistry in the same day so I decided to do a little experiment on myself. Start with the same words “We find ourselves in a constant state of motion” two different times and then write and just don’t stop writing, write down the next idea I think of. I guess it was just to see how far my brain could stray…from itself.


Music Essentials Honors (1st Period)

We find ourselves in a constant state of motion. We never rest, we never do nothing. We dream, why? [Are] our dreams reality and our reality dreams? [Yes this point has been gone over so many times in history it is really just cliché to talk about it].

Am I really just walking in a barren wasteland and all my sense have failed me to the point where I think I am living, I make myself believe I am thinking but really all I’m doing is wasting away and my sense are some sort of drug that is keeping my brain alive for some purpose grater than the real and non-real world.

Why do social norms run our lives [again, cliché, I guess I can’t just type freely without being a complete hypocrite to what I get angered at every day] when we preach that everyone is different and we should all bask in our uniqueness but we must stop that uniqueness to be part of the social norm, don’t practice what you preach or else you [are dead].

To find this common ground is to conform, which is exactly what our brains tell us not to do by taking us away from the barren wasteland and putting us somewhere that we can flourish. Why do we create these things when our sole purpose is not to?

As a teenage whit male [in a middle-class family] you might feel so similar to everyone else you see, and I really do. To find one different thing about you is like striking gold. This is what makes me think of our brain putting us here, that glorious unique feeling of being one of 7 billion since that is what we came here for, we sometimes grip on to that feeling so tight we lose track of everything we gained, and it all goes down. You don’t try to find the needle in the haystack because when you do, what do you do next? Do you throw it back in and go through the process again? […] Or do you take it, the only one to find that needle in that haystack and hold it forever? What do you do with that? It never benefits you. So this feeling of individuality should be fleeting and [you must] move on to the next bit, just keep moving because that is really all we are here for.


Chemistry (5th Period)

We find ourselves in a constant state of motion, orbiting, walking, breathing, resting. We never do nothing.

We feel the closest we get to nothing is sleep. We dream when we sleep, in a sense, dreaming is more active than what we are doing in the day. The closest we ever get to nothing is the bare essence of something. When we are most active, we find nothing impossibly, that is when something is not probable or impossible. Nothing. That point will never be hit.
Back to dreaming, is ream reality and reality dream? [Yes this point has been gone over so many times in history it is really just cliché to talk about it] Is [dreaming] just a distraction from a more important activity that should be done at that point in time? Sleepwalking. Why does it happen? Are we being called by our subconscious to stop dreaming and start your way to nothing? Isn’t that state of our existence the quest for nothing? Is that why we wake up as soon as we are doing the absolute most we can do?

While dreaming am I about to do so much that I’m going to make an important discovery? That time is just the brains way of dealing with reality? That we happen in 0 seconds and our brain slows that down. (Credit to Ben, Serg, Scott, Taylor, and Sherman). The reason I think this is because time is the one common thing we all share. It binds us all to one thing we all have, it seems so un-structured. Yes it is scientifically proven that there are are 24 hours in a day/ 7 days a week/ 365 days in a year but what is science besides a bunch of arbitrary values put on words that try to explain three dimensions. How naïve is it to think that we can define the fourth dimension by using the three we [seem to know so much about].

We try, oh god we try, it’s like a doctor saying, “this kid is sick, I only know how to do chemotherapy and I might as well do that because there is a chance that he has cancer.” (That was completely plagiarized from someone, I can’t remember who though). Yes we can try but it is so much broader then the tools we have to work with so what is the point of trying? Am I going to make a different discovery? (Crossed out everything else I wrote)


So what did I learn about myself? Absolutely nothing about myself as a person, nothing about any of these apparently rhetorical questions I asked, but I did learn that tangents, even on a cliché subject like dreams becoming reality and reality dreams, can really explain the inner workings of ones brain, for me that is with arbitrary thoughts you can be more lucid and stay in touch with yourself that you’d let on.